all i want, is to be where you are (:

2010-02-10T19:31:00.000+08:00

2009-05-14T16:46:00.006+08:00

"Let the hearts of those who seek the LORD rejoice."
Although man can forget God or reject him,
He never ceases to call every man to seek him, so as to find life and happiness.
But this search for God demands of man every effort of intellect, a sound will, "an upright heart", as well as the witness of others who teach him to seek God.

You are great, O Lord, and greatly to be praised: great is your power and your wisdom is without measure.
And man, so small a part of your creation, wants to praise you: this man, though clothed with mortality and bearing the evidence of sin and the proof that you withstand the proud.
Despite everything, man, though but a small a part of your creation, wants to praise you.
You yourself encourage him to delight in your praise, for you have made us for yourself, and our heart is restless until it rests in you.

Keep my restless heart in you always, Lord.
For, there is none like you. :)

2009-01-22T22:23:00.000+08:00

I got used to the treadmill love
Where no matter how fast you run,
You're stuck at the starting point,
Only exhausted.
I was the anonymous author
Of songs I'd not dared to share.
Lacking the audience of a lover's ear.

2009-01-07T21:31:00.003+08:00

Blessed is the match consumed in kindling flame.
Blessed is the flame that burns in the secret fastness of the heart.
Blessed is the heart with strength to stop its beating for honor's sake.
Blessed is the match consumed in kindling flame.

-

burn flame, burn.
burn bright and shine ever so bright in the cold dark night, giving warmth to the hands that gave you life; mine.

I'm keeping faith. No matter what i feel, i'm keeping it, with Him in my heart.

2008-09-12T01:27:00.001+08:00

You who dwell in the shelter of the Lord,
Who abide in His shadow for life,
Say to the Lord, "My Refuge, My Rock in Whom I trust."

And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.

The snare of the fowler will never capture you,
And famine will bring you no fear;
Under His Wings your refuge,
His faithfulness your shield.

You need not fear the terror of the night,
Nor the arrow that flies by day,
Though thousands fall about you,
Near you it shall not come.

For to His angels He's given a command,
To guard you in all of your ways,
Upon their hands they will bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.

-

a really nice hymm that has been giving me strength and peace these days.
and it's about time i faithfully take my place in his house. :)

thank you God for keeping me strong and holding me up in times like this.
do continue to guide me, mould me, bless me and love me in your ever forgiving and loving ways.

2008-08-26T19:36:00.004+08:00

might blog more regularly when life gets better.
the past mths were 'pick-up-the-pieces' period..
still picking up, hopefully things start looking up.

2008-07-30T17:05:00.000+08:00

check out: http://juperjup.livejournal.com

2008-07-04T14:11:00.005+08:00

and so, the new semester has begun!
awaiting exemption frm Marketing Principles,
the previous sem 2 batch have quite a number failing 1 module, some 2, and also, 3! :/
will get into gear and get muchmuch better grades than first sem!

mission 1: get. HD/D. for. tests!
mission 2: repeat above for final grades! :)

-

You light the skies, up above me
A star, so bright, you blind me
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t fade away, don’t fade away

If walls break down, I will comfort you
If angels cry, oh I’ll be there for you

2008-02-22T18:01:00.000+08:00

Take time to realize
That your warmth is
Crashing down on me
Take time to realize
That I am on your side
Well didn't I, didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, now

Take time to realize
Oh oh, I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
Take time to realize
Oh oh, I'm on your side
Oh ooo oh ooo oh
But I can't spell it out for you
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, but It's not the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it too
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other

You got me feelin like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

2008-02-11T08:30:00.002+08:00

Haven’t you heard
I’m stuck on a face
I’m stuck on a boy who feels me with joy
I knew I was wrong to
jump straight on into the picture so pretty
But he is so pretty to me

And he doesn’t know just how far I would go
Just to kiss him
He doesn’t doesn’t know I pine

So I make whirlpools
And watch him sparkle

when can i meet you superman?

2007-10-14T07:30:00.000+08:00

as you look around this room tonight
settle in your seat and dim the lights
do you want my blood, do you want my tears
what do you want?
what do you want from me?
should I sing until I can't sing any more
play these strings until my fingers are raw
you're so hard to please
what do you want from me?

through the fish eyed lens of tear stained eyes
i can barely define the shape of this moment in time
and far from flying high in clear blue skies
i'm spiralling down to the hole in the ground where i hide

when I was a child
i caught a fleeting glimpse
out of the corner of my eye
i turned to look but it was gone
i cannot put my finger on it now
the child is grown
the dream is gone
and I have become
comfortably numb.

2007-10-12T16:42:00.000+08:00

im tired. tired of this shit.
if i have to rely on myself, i will.
it seems that, those, are worth more attention, time, money, care and love than i would ever be.
it makes me wonder if my 20years' existence even mean anything?

someone once wrote to a friend of mine, "i fight to be part of your world, but someone is your world without even trying."
true aint it?

likewise, some pple get things without doing much, or even doing anything at all, but some pple have to slog for almost everything they need/want in life.
i used to believe that life is fair. but not anymore.
no point letting myself be in this lousy state, when i know im worth so much more than you'd probably think.

2007-09-25T15:15:00.000+08:00

There's a little more to love and life, than fairytales and hand me down dreams.

2007-09-20T16:23:00.000+08:00

for the record, i don't fancy nobody, fullstop.

something to be on cloud nine about; i got my ipod nano! :))
had intention to engrave it, but decided against it at the last min.
and thanks to dearest bro, i got it cheaper than the actual price. heh.

the relatives from australia are in town, and i'm hoping to hang out with the 2 cousins who are here. joshua is busy with uni, so he can't be here.
and that's kinda sad cos i haven't seen him in ages, and i'd like to see how much he has grown since then.
i've plans to head over there and spend hols with them and also, to catch up with friends studying/living there too. we'll see when that comes around.

bon voyage to my dearest lovlies, kristy and kyrie who are flying off to hongkong, and also to my bestest guy, leroy and dearest buddy, gary who are off to london.
be safe, and keep warm! :D
i'll be missing y'all truckloads! -huggss. :)

2007-09-17T15:35:00.000+08:00

leroy, if you're reading this, you're absolutely right about what you said that day.
and you're missed! :)

imma SUPERGIRL(:

36days.

2007-09-13T03:45:00.000+08:00

i've realised that i need a superman, and not just anybody.
and all i want more than anything else, is a safe pair of arms for me to turn to for comfort and support.

who will be my superman?

2007-08-30T17:24:00.000+08:00

real love, like real life, is never perfect,
and happily ever after only happens in fairy tales.
somehow real problems always find us,
sometimes angry words are spoken.
sometimes we just get on each other's nerves,
but the important thing is to remember that our love is always there,
full of forgiveness and understanding,
waiting for more happy times to share.
real love is powerful stuff.
it doesnt need to be perfect to survive and grow.
in fact, our love probably wldn't be as strong as it is now,
if we had not survive a few tough times.
we'll get through this time, too.
i love you, and i trust in our love.

2007-08-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin

I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
I guess that's how this one's gonna go I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker

2007-08-21T16:15:00.000+08:00

i'm a silly fool for love dramas.
a silly fool who smiles like a lil kid at what's playing on the screen.

how sweet..

想你有时会缺氧. <3

when will it be my turn?
my heart is under arrest, again.

2007-08-16T14:45:00.000+08:00

alot to look forward to this week. -winks. :)
a reasonable dose of stress makes the remaining days of the week refreshing.
cant wait for the coaching season to start!! :D
(rarh-rarh! coaches gather! taupok!)

i'll do an ole this fri!

i really like the tight and warm hug that day. hee. :)
you make me smile like a lil kid all over again. <3

2007-08-08T13:43:00.000+08:00

you are my sunshine.
now my world's turned cold; like the cold war that we're having.
nothing seems to be going right for me.
there's this void that i've been trying to fill so that i won't miss your laughter, your smile, your positivity and energy.
but no matter what i do, as long as i've got a moment alone, my thoughts are all about you.
these days of not doing much, has made me feel empty.
do you still remember "emp-ty"?
i don't know what i can do to have you and i talking like the old times.
i miss you alot shan...i really do.

if i could have a bottle to numb these thoughts and emotions, that'd be great.
even if it's for awhile, it's better than nothing ain't it?

2007-08-07T07:56:00.000+08:00

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

fyiw.

did i crossed your mind that day?

2007-08-06T12:52:00.000+08:00

this is one of those days which i'd like to stuff myself crazy with chocs, ice cream, chips, and perhaps, alcohol. lots of it in fact.
feeling effing l.o.u.s.y. hah.
a getaway to somewhere sounds appealing too.
if only it could be now. this very instance. argh.
nothing seems to be going right. at all.

socks off, and fly away.
the WHISKY man;

2007-08-05T09:34:00.000+08:00

I believed in once upon a times
Happy ever after fairy tales.
I believed a love I thought was mine,
Never thought this heart could be so frail.
All the shades you are have been shown.
When somebody sees them, you will be alone.
Silver futures that I'm searching for.
Is love lucky or is it blind?
Round and round the seasons pass you by
The same thing happens
Time and time again I'm asking why.
The tears have helped release the fears inside.
They tell me I will a find a love,
And now I'm in a place
Where all the shades you are have been shown.
And still here I am all alone.
Does anybody really know who I am?
When I fall in love will he be my best friend?
Does anybody really know who you are?
Or do they sometimes pretend they do?
Does love pretend too?

so many times things I've tried in my life
been so many places
you could say I know some faces.
so many times I've cried in the dark
with a broken promise tearing me apart.
this life is totally mine
and I don't know what it is

2007-08-04T03:40:00.000+08:00

i love hugging my pillow & cat; it reminds me of you. <3

2007-07-27T13:55:00.000+08:00

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything.

2007-07-26T12:45:00.000+08:00

strapped safely to the passenger seat in the fast moving convertible,
with the ever-familiar rock tracks playing from the stereo,
her tresses fly carelessly in the cold wind as she is driven home by the man at the steering wheel, with the car's top down.

slient, and deep in her thoughts with the question that she's been asking herself to which, she has yet to find an answer to. frustrated, she looks out of the open window. the blurred images of the passing surroundings seems to provide her with a much needed distraction from the matter that she's been pushing around in her head for days, and perhaps, weeks.

when a particular track started playing from the stereo, her lips parted and started to mouth the lyrics out. word for word and line for line. soon, she was singing along to the song. it had evoked emotions that she chose to bottle up and leave it for another day to muse about. but she has never gotten around to it. if she could, she'd keep avoiding it, to buy her more time. which she knows she has plenty of. at the same time, she knows that the faster she made a decision the better it'd be.

as the song came to an end, she had reached her destination. and she chose yet again, to leave it for another day.

2007-07-24T15:59:00.000+08:00

My heart's not ready for the rocking chair
I need somebody who really cares
So tired of livin' solitare
Someday I'm gonna be
Safe in the arms of love

Strip your heart and it starts to snow
Love is a high-wire act I know
Someday I'll find a net below

I want a heart to be forever mine
Want eyes to see me satisfied
Gonna hang my heartaches out to dry
Some day I'm gonna be safe in the arms of love

i wished i had spoken to you that day before you left.
you'll always have a special place in my heart no matter what.
a special day awaits. -huggss. <3

2007-07-23T15:26:00.000+08:00

I'm starin' out at the sky
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams?
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh, how does he cry?
What's the colour of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he, where is he, where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he, who is he?
Who's gonna take me so high?

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time

2007-07-21T15:30:00.000+08:00

And I do believe it's true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
But if the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too
So brown eyes I hold you near
Cause you're the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

2007-07-15T16:15:00.000+08:00

There you go again talking cinematic
You're charming, got everybody star struck.
I know
How you always seem to go
For the obvious instead of me
But get a ticket and you'll see

If we were a movie
You'd be the right guy
And I'd be the best friend that you fall in love with
In the end we'd be laughing
Watching the sunset
Fade to black
Show the names
Play that happy song

When you call me
I can hear it in your voice
Oh sure!
Wanna see me
And tell me all about her
La la
I'll be acting through my tears
Guess you'll never know
That I should win
An Oscar for this scene I'm in

Wish I could tell you there's a twist
Some kind of hero in disguise
And we're together
It's for real
Now playing
Wish I could tell you there's a kiss
Like something more than in my mind
I see it
Could be amazing

2007-07-13T14:42:00.000+08:00

don't quite know how to put it;
too much all of the sudden.
these must end, for good.

2007-07-12T15:59:00.001+08:00

Borrowed pens on dotted lines
Sign the past away.
This is yours and that is mine,
So the papers say.
How can you move so quickly?
How can you heal so fast?
And what will I do with my mornings?
And what will I do with my nights?

You want answers that I can't give,
You want words I don't know.
Ask me when I'm through getting over you.

__

Photographs of long ago
The colours fade
The wrinkles show
I loved you then
I love you still
I guess I always will
Aging hearts
And shaking knees
Moving parts
Still bend with ease
I loved you young
And age improves
The song I feel for you
You grow more beautiful
Each passing day
The lines that time withstood
You grow more beautiful
I hate to say
Well I told you so
But I knew you would
Close the light
Still the flame
Candles light
The empty frame
A photograph
Can never be
The song you are to me...

2007-07-04T15:50:00.000+08:00

If the hero never comes to you
If You need someone You're feeling blue
If You wait for loving when You're alone
If You call Your friends nobody's home
You can runaway but You can't hide
Through storm and through the lonely night
Then I show You there's a destiny
The best things in life
They are free

But if You wanna cry, cry on my shoulder
If You need someone who cares for You
If You're feeling sad Your heart get's colder
Yes I show You what will love can do

If the sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where We'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh, just call Me and I make Your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hot for you
I will always stay here by Your side
I promise You, I'll never hide

i promise to always be there for you.
nothing, will change all that we've had together. nothing.
you're the best that i will ever have in this life of mine. period.
i love you babe. i really do, with all my heart.

2007-06-30T17:04:00.000+08:00

a young girl's heart takes wing(s)

2007-06-30T09:05:00.000+08:00

been busy coaching public camps since the end of may.
and now, i'm coaching school camps.
am currently coaching at Princess Elizabeth Primary, and also doubling up as music man.

coaching gives me serenity, and keeps me from thinking about certain things that gets me down.
till now, the cold war is still going on.
i honestly don't know what else i can possibly do.
neither do i know how long it'd take for YOU to speak to me again.
i can only hope it's soon.

on a happier note, grad day's nearing; 4th July(wed)! :)
i'm hoping you'd come after receiving my email.
it'd mean alot to me to have you there.
i'll leave it to YOU to decide.

speedy boy; your smile, makes me smile. <3

you give me something; :)

2007-06-09T08:05:00.000+08:00

"hope is for the hopeless. sometimes, hope is all you've got."

this is a blatant truth.
and there's no denying that we, humans do this almost everyday of our lives.
we always hold on to something, no matter how small it may be, just to keep us going.
i've been holding on for a long time now.
and i won't give up till the day you give up on us.
it's been hard not texting/calling you.
i ain't sure when things will be back to normal.
but i hope it's soon.

thanks for the concern.
you made my day, as usual. :D
i still hold on to that glimmer of hope.
and you still make my heart go racing. :))

2007-05-19T15:32:00.000+08:00

i guess when facts are presented to you directly or indirectly in your face, there's no running away.
tho i'm gutted, upset and miffed at certain stuff right now,
none of it matches up to, this.

if this is how it ends,
can i not say goodbye?
i doubt i can even muster anything out.
pardon me if i don't bow out of this as graceful as i should.
if you're clueless as to how i feel, perhaps this would sum it all up,

"emotions welled up and ready to flow, but the eyes are as dry as the desert despite the many futile attempts to let it go".

you said before, "wouldn't it be great if we were lovers?"
but now, i find myself nowhere in that world of yours.
so tell me, where do i stand now?
and, do i mean anything to you?

2007-05-09T15:59:00.000+08:00

there comes a time in life when we find the heart we're looking for;

i will smile like a lil kid, of that i'm sure. :)

leroy, if you're reading this, i would love for you to know that you're my bestest guy friend, ever.
and that i love you truckloads. :)))

2007-05-04T15:32:00.000+08:00

I can see me loving nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life
Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together

when i'm down or feeling blue,
all i need is to remember that day,
and i'll smile like a lil kid once again. :)

2007-04-17T17:09:00.000+08:00

that mere few minutes was suffice to make my day. :)
~~-the beautiful pill~~ speedy boy;

but one thing i know for sure,
that my feelings for you are true.

2007-04-15T18:58:00.000+08:00

im glad to have spent quality time with the mum these days.
tho it's just lunches, im contented.
cos it's quality time with her! hee.
i love you mummy! :)

am back with ny after months of separation.
it's been 2 years, and there's more to come.
work at the voodoo shop has been lovely.

in a nutshell, life's been ______.
thank god for bestie. :)
always the understanding person and always sticking by me through it all.

oh well, there's alot of things to look forward to in the coming weeks & months.
let's see how all of it unfolds.

you're the one I've always thought of.
i don't know how, but I feel sheltered in your love.
you're where I belong.
and when you're with me if I close my eyes,
there are times I swear I feel like I can fly for a moment in time.
somewhere between the Heavens and earth,
and frozen in time;

2007-04-15T16:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 20th KRISTY!! :)

welcome to club twenty! :D (only kyrie's left. hahaa.)
may this day be full of smiles & joy for you.

2007-04-11T19:11:00.000+08:00

if things stack up over time and causes strain in the friendship in some ways or another, why can't people talk about what's affecting them when they feel ready to?

why are some people less susceptible to another friend's change, when everyone goes through some form of changes from time to time?

why do friends think that just cause they know one another for a very long time, they know the person goddamn well?

(i'm referring to those long standing and close friendships here)

all of the above directly or indirectly causes negative feelings to friendships, and some end up nowhere cos of it .

i dont understand why people take friendship the way they do now.
(im speaking about those i know that is happening around me)
perhaps it's just me to wear it on my sleeves and work at mine with all that i can. i'm not perfect in mine, but i do what i can, when i can. these people matter alot to me and they are worth all that i've got.

i know that we all have different models of the world, and we all react and deal with things differently. but the rationale is there.

if something is not going right and it makes things less than easy for those involved to deal with, why not do something about it instead of letting things be the way it is and deteriorate to a point where it's hard or too late to salvage?

these people dont need a book for dummies to tell them to do something about it, what they need, is a book that tells them to put away that goddamn EGO and take action instead of procrastinating!

if a relationship means alot to you, you'd do whatever you can to save it, or keep it the way it was.

i strongly believe that it's not worth letting friendship(s) drift or go that easily. esp, those long standing and close ones which hold many fond memories.

do take time and think about yours. :)

2007-04-08T15:50:00.000+08:00

these nights when I can't sleep, sleep at all
slowly I close my eyes
my thoughts they fly away to you no matter what I do;

I always think of you
When my world is turned upside down.
Pictures of you in my head,
Makes me smile and forget
Why I was so upset;

for now, i wish you to be safe and well.
hopefully you sleep well these nights. -huggss.

2007-03-22T16:55:00.000+08:00

everything feels so pfft up now. i really need a reprieve.
i wish i can draw strength like i always did, and be a'right.
but i can't muster anything out.
just cos i've always been strong, don't mean i will/can still be that way when the bad comes around, or something gets me really down.

i'm getting tired of the "strong" persona.
pple would just leave me be, thinking i can get back on my feet easily.
in some situations, yes, i can. in some, i can't.
and this could be one of those in which i can't.

2007-03-19T11:40:00.000+08:00

now, im lost and worried abt where my future lies.
when you finally find something you're darn interested in,
something(ironically) have to come in between and dash it.
gotta replan and work my way around now. sighs.
now i pray, i can get into either NTU or SMU.
gotta settle my documents submission for SMU asap.

lately my appetite hasn't all that been good.
ain't sure if it's cos im feeling under the weather, or, i just ain't having the mood to eat.
oh well, hopefully things work themselves out, soon.

i miss that face, that smile, and the hugs i always get from YOU.

2007-02-19T10:15:00.000+08:00

i pray daddy's slipped disc will recover soon.
he can't sit for long, and has trouble sleeping. it really hurts to see him like this.
hang in there pop, you'll recover soon. :)

& i hope gary's wish to me will come true. heee.
thanks so much dear friend! =)

2007-02-19T04:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR LOVELIES!!!

may this piggie year usher in for everyone prosperity, good health, career stability, and LOVE!

woke up, paid respects and wished mummy and daddy. hee. :)
i got a lil crazy & into the chinese new year mood yest night, and welcomed Cai Shen Ye with an incense. LOL.

gonna go mummy's side to bai nian later.
uncle Andrew's house is awfully near to ours, so we dont have to leave early. hahaa.

kinda looking forward to daddy's side tmrw, cos i'll get to see my lil nephew!
hopefully cousin Louis goes to aunt Agnes's, else i won't get to see hung-hung. :)

i miss you guys lots! and, do know that i love y'all! :)

2007-02-15T15:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!

this is the one and only day whereby shops have the "privilleges" to hike up their prices, all in the name of love.
it's nice to have a special day to celebrate love, then again,
everyday should be spent like it's valentine's day with your beloved isn't it?

i'd love to handmake gifts, bake or even cook for mine.
the only hiccup is, i have yet to find my beloved.
i know i will find the beloved someday, somehow.
until then, i'll keep those yitty bitty gestures that i'd do for him in the heart. :)

to those sweetly in love, all the best to your union and may today be special through and through for y'all.

to the lovely singles, that special someone will be found someday, and yeah, somehow.

to my beautiful pill; you're dearly missed and loved, by me. :)

every word that has been spoken, i said them from the heart.
every gesture, however small it may be, i did them from my heart.
no matter how aloof i was in the beginning, i cared ever so true for you from my heart.
all that i've been to you ever since i took half the mask off, came from the heart.
what i feel for you, came only and solely from my heart.
all that i will be to you, will only be from the heart.

2007-01-31T15:59:00.000+08:00

TWENTIES CLUB MEMBER! =)

yesyes, i have the digit "2" officially stamped. :)
it feels good, yet weird.hahahaa.
almost all of my friends are still 19, with the digit "1" but i ain't anymore. im a digit "2" now! LOL.
and yea, it also means that im getting OLD.
(read dearest kyrie's blog.)

had my 2nd bdae celebration with dearest kristy and kyrie at marina square's Billy Bombers.
and the two of em surprised me with a cake!
awww...so tweet of em! heehee. :)
made a wish that i really hope would come true.hahaaa.

and the whole of today i was a very busy person receiving sweet birthday messages after another. =)
thanks so much to those who wished me!
there's far too many for me to name, so im doing it collectively.yupyup.
thanks for the gifts also! reallyreally appreciate it lots.

PS: shall posts pictures of sat and today when im back.
till then, im off to bed.nights.

a wish made from thy heart.
may it be blessed by the lord.

2007-01-30T15:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!! =)

mummy, thank you for everything that you have done for me since the day you brought me out into this world.you mean the world to me, and tho i dont say it as often as i used to,
I LOVE YOU! alot. :)

-huggss. C=

it's about half an hour to my birthday, to the big 2-0.
i'm moving away from the digit "1", to the digit "2".
like what leroy said on sat when they celebrated my bdae in advanced, "welcome to the twenties club."
welcome indeed. :)

alot is definitely in stored for me this year.
how things are gonna unfold for me, i don't know.
that's the beauty of life, isn't it?
i wish for nothing but the best to all in my life, and of cos, to myself. =)

You're the epitome of every attribute and quality I've ever looked for in another person.

2007-01-30T09:33:00.000+08:00

did some quizzes out of boredom:

You Are a String Bikini

You're confident, bold, and sexy.
No one has to tell you - you know you look damn good!

What Kind of Bikini Are You?

Your Gemstone is Ruby

Daring, ethusiastic, and spontaneous.
You are energetic and passionate, with an appetite for life.

What Gemstone Are You?

Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

What Color Is Your Aura?

Your Candy Heart Is "HOT STUF"

Got a date for V-day? You've probably got a few!
You're playing the field right now, which is cool
You've certainly got the charm to bring in tons of prospects
It's just a matter of deciding between dinner dates

What Candy Conversation Heart Are You?

2007-01-23T13:28:00.000+08:00

sweetie, i wanna know when are we gonna spend quality time doing stuff together like we used to?
it's been far too long, that i cant remember what was the last thing we did together.when im free, you ain't.and vice versa.
it's so darn hard for us to get time together.
i miss those times we had.
i reallyreallyreally do.alot.

just yesterday, i went through the cards, letters and gifts you gave me.and alot of emotions stirred up within me.
i would have cried if i had let myself feel sad abt not having you in my life now, as much as i used to.
instead, i chose to feel happy abt the memories and times we had, and the times that we will have in the near future.

you were the one who taught me to be postive no matter how shitty the situation im in.most of all, you were the one who gave me back my smile when i lost it.
you're someone whom i'd do anything, and everything that i can to make/see you happy, to be there whenever you needed me, and to keep you safe no matter what.
and i hold true to these words of mine.
like i've always said, i can't thank god enough for blessing me with you in my life.
you're like god-given y'know? =)

there's so many things we wanted to do together in/after march.and i truly hope that we can do em after your competition is over.but for now, i hope with all my heart that you'd get selected to compete in the world championships.
sadly, i dont have the means to go watch you compete.
i'll do my best to make it for the next one okay? :)
if you need me, im just a call away yea?
i'll be there for you no matter how busy i am.

PS: all the best in your assignments and tests.
you can do it yea? you're the man! hahahaaa.

iloveyatruckloads. -huggss. :)))

2007-01-22T11:33:00.000+08:00

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

My soul will no more be a paper cup.

2007-01-20T15:55:00.000+08:00

went for body combat class.
tho it was tiring, it was a great workout. :)
after gym, it was dinner at crystal jade with gary&elsa, kristy&kyrie.
then, it was to swensens for desserts!
we had earthquake & topless five! :D
thereafter, the three of us cabbed home together.

and i doubt that i will ever find out if there's a way to get out of feeling all alone
'cause lately i've been thinking maybe that no one's going to save me.
i'll do it on my own.

it's been this way all along, so what gives?

2007-01-19T14:51:00.000+08:00

i dont know what comes next, dont know what goes from here.
it's a mix of confusion and dilemma now.
somehow, it seems that it aint a good thing to care.
would it have been better if i didn't?
would the things that i've done be taken for granted, like it's been in some cases?
i wish i knew when to care, and when not to.
maybe, just maybe, it's just in me to care; typical traits of an aquarian.
bane or boon, i don't know.

2007-01-17T14:10:00.000+08:00

I've been thinking everyday about you,
Don't fit anywhere into my life, but that's okay,
'Cause I think I might be right for you.
And because of that, I'm not scared at all.
And everyone says I'm crazy,
And everyone says I'm a fool,
Would you meet me by the water tonight?
'Cause I'm ready to break all the rules.

Please don't leave me standing with my heart in my hand,
I can't last here,
I'm breaking down, and no one understands why I got here.
But I knew from the very first moment that I met you ,
You'd be the one.

2007-01-02T15:26:00.000+08:00

i have decided to quit being a prat and blog but nothing nice comes to mind.boos!
groans.i havent been able to sleep well the past 3 nights,
for whatever reason(s), i aint sure.
for the nights ahead, i reallyreallyreally need good sleep!!
FYPJ is stressful and boring......sighs.

my big day is nearing but i dare not put too much hope in celebrating it with the group of pple i hope to have it with.
it's been like this all along, 'cep with the family, of cos! :)
january is always a busy month with tests, projects and whatnot, like the coming exams and chinese new year.
not putting too much hope would be somewhat better,
dont you think so?

oh well, i will let the lord decide how my 20th bdae would be like. i'll just go with the flow. :)
turning the BIG 2-0 is kinda scary yet exciting,
cos you know it also means that bigger things are gonna come your way, etc.

No matter what the bigger things are,
and what they may bring into my life,
i will take them in my stride and give my all to it,
and also to the people in my life.

Chinese New Year is coming, and that means, ANG PAO!!! :)

here's a list of things i wanna/gonna get with the moolah:

- NUM Australia(blue/red) jersey
- NUM Swimming jersey
- Havaianas Trek Sandals (red/black)
- New Specs
- Skirts
- Dresses -yeah, dresses! it's abt time. :)
- Jeans
- More tops
- New batch of contacts

it's time to change my wardrobe and move towards a side of me that i have to grow into, and yes, im referring to feminity! :)
honestly, i feel dammmnnn good when i dress up! hahaaa. =)

your face, your brillant smile, firmly attached in my mind.
when i think of love, i think of YOU.

2006-12-17T12:26:00.000+08:00

i know i haven blogged in econs, but i will find the time to revive this blog, real soon (i hope, haha). :)

2006-09-11T16:25:00.000+08:00

i wonder how much of me being an intense person is true, when i can't fully identify with the traits. half the time, i hover in the in-betweens.
i find myself displaying a trait of an intense person and another of a doe-eyed's, both at the same time. and this confuses my real persona when i really go think about it.
no doubt, im the opinionated sort who has a mind of my own, who ain't afraid to speak my mind, etc..however, i've long known that i dont like domineering situations, at all. i like having my say/having it heard and all, but i dont go into it thinking i must win/have it my way.

i'd like to see what the other(s) involved has to say before coming to a decision together; compromise. simply cos, i've always believe in compromising, and that's how it's gonna be when it comes to relationships, especially.

and i'd prefer a doe-eyed guy over an intense one anytime, anyday.
to be specific, i'd like someone who's sporty, has a rather fit bod, is outgoing, humorous, understanding(in situations) and most of all, chrismatic.
i've a weakness for chrismatic guys, haha. (:

Attachment
attachment has been a real big bore! ))):
i'd come to work and have absolutely nothing to do at all! ))):
passing the 9 hours is totally tiring and a waste of precious time.
i'd just stare at the computer screen, on autopilot mode, pretending to be doing something or awake when i'm actually dozing off. LOL.
if only week 12 is here(wishful thinking!), i'd heave a great sigh of relief from this boredom.

IAG
IAG-Basic was fun!! (:
the coaches whom i worked with were great company to be around with, and i hope, i'd be able to coach with them in dec.
this also means that i gotta take MCs from FYPJ, lolz.
i had nice kids for my first IAG camp! (:
a family sprung up between max's kids and mine, and together, we make up a soccer team! hahahaha.
can't remember how it came about, but it was SMASHING! :D
and i'm looking forward to sat's booster session. wanna see my kids again. lol.
TEEN TITANS!!! :D

my head's filled with thoughts of you more often than ever lately.
now things have gotten a lil blurred,
but i don't wanna stop feeling the way i do for you.

an understanding & charismatic soul with a big heart of gold; YOU. (:

2006-09-04T13:24:00.000+08:00

a'right, i've been posted to Public Service Division, Prime Minister's Office; under the Nation Library Board, and tmr's the first day of work.

my only worry is the job scope. it's so general that i ain't sure what i'm supposed to do. i hope i'd be able to get a grade 5 at the end of every week's assessment, else my GPA would be affected.

if the 12 weeks of attachment goes by smoothly, i will be left with only FYPJ to deal with. and after FYPJ, it's graduation! yeah baby!! hahaha. ((:

bought some of my formal just now. got a blazer, a pants and a shirt.
still gotta get 3 more shirts, and 1 pants. shall get em all soon.

there ain't anything much left to update, 'cep, that we have officially handed over our baton to the new batch of Excos. received some gifts, took pics etc...
the clubroom is still ours till fri.
all the memories we all shared from OGL days till this very day has been unforgettable and great. thanks for everything my fellow Excos!
i'll miss EACH AND EVERY SINGLE Excos. love ya'all! (((: -huggss-

i still feel the same from day one.
if the cards fall into place, good for me.
if it don't, then i guess it's just not meant to be..

2006-08-28T14:33:00.000+08:00

im blogging again! HAHA.

first up, EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!
no more mugging for me till graduation. HAHA. (:

it's attachment and fypj next for me.
the thought of it just make me go, "wth, waste of time!" lolz.
esp fypj...you'll be stuck in a lab, and all you do is eat, drink, do some programming work, sleep, listen to music, watch movies and chat on msn!
i can't imagine myself doing all the above for abt 2mths plus-3 mths.
it's like no-lifer!?

till now i'm clueless about the company i'll be working in. and i've yet to get my formal clothes. gotta go get it asap.
haha, shopping oh yeah!! ((:

tues & wed, will be coaching outdoor camp! can't wait! :D

thurs is SIT Club's AGM.
my oh my, we're stepping down already. time really pass real quick eh.
to think that abt a year ago, it was our seniors handing over the baton to us.
the journey from OGL days till today has been a great and memorable one, and it's one i'd keep for life! :D
im soooo gonna miss my fellow Excos manz. let's all meet up afer we're all done with year 3 ok??? (: -huggss-

soon, kris is gonna leave kyrie and i to freeze her butt off in france..haiz.
im sooo gonna miss you sweetie!! pls call/sms me when u can aye!
loveya! :D

cant believe what i found out.
what's done is done, no turning back.
soldier on.

2006-08-22T12:22:00.000+08:00

what do you do when you see your family falling apart?
especially at such an impt period in your life; final year exams?

yest night was truly a nightmare.
a nightmare i cant get off my mind and concentrate on tmr's paper.
i don't wanna screw up my final year...
save me pls, god! i need you now, more than ever.
i need peace within me.

on a happier note,

Happy 21st, Bro!!!! (((:

pity he's spending it in the army.haha.
loveya. :D

I'm tired of being me,
And I don't like what I see.
Down on my knees I will pray,
For a change in any way.
This peace I seek,
Till thy kingdom comes.

2006-07-27T14:46:00.000+08:00

hmmmm...it's been ages hasn't it? (:
kk...time for some updates. and i've changed the skin. nice ain't it? :D

Wednesday, 19 July

Mobile App 2nd practical test was quite bad.
i didn't manage to get quest 1 to work.
all cos i added an extra line of codes to the comparator file. dammit la. wasted. else it'd have worked.
i got it working well at home after the test. the only thing is that i couldn't get it to retrieve the records with 80 marks and above. ):
and i didn't manage to complete schedule.xhtml for quest 2.
so, i don't know how much i'd get. hopefully, it won't be lesser than what i guessed it'd be.
for the written test(35%) next wed, i gotta do really really well and get a HIGH A. this way, i can at least ensure a C overall.
pray for me, won't you kind souls? (: haha.

and as expected, i screwed up e-commerce test and flunked. )):
studied but cldn't get nothing out to score on those quests.
relatively, the paper was ok. could have gotten a B for it if i had studied chpt 5..haiz.nvm, i shan't brood over it anymore.

Thursday, 20 July

did proj in school till the evening. dreads. and i finally got it done. yay! (:
went down to Toa Payoh Hub to help out with STC's musical after that.
bumped into my cousin at the auditorium. he was the casts' hairstylist! HAHA.
it was totally surprising. cos it never did occur to me that he'd dabble into hairstyling. and he don't seemed the artistic kind to me. lolz.
i gotta keep this secret from my mum and the other aunts. =X hurhur.
bus-ed home after that with kyrie.

Friday, 21 July

went shopping with theBestie at Bugis.
bought my corduroy jacket, 2 tops(1 off-shoulder, and a nice printed t-shirt), a demim skirt and a pair of jeans. (((:
the nice buys after 2 years of not shopping, made me a very very happy girl. :D
zafir joined us for lunch, and the three of us train-ed home tog.

met Kyrie in e night after she was done with helping out at STC's musical.
and we went ard Toa Payoh to find a florist shop to get roses for the sec three dance girls.
and we bus-ed home thereafter.

Saturday, 22 July

went to STC to help carry cartons of drinks to Toa Payoh Hub.
after that, sent poor kyrie to the clinic cos she was really sick.
that poor girl didnt eat for 3 days!! and she couldn't even take in much fluids, else she'd vomit.

left kyrie in lee laoshi hands, then hurried down to Kallang Sea Sports Centre with kristy for AK's dragonboat for superkids.
after it ended, we bathed and rushed down(again) to Toa Payoh Hub for STC's musical gala night.
the musical was nice. but since i watched parts of it while helping out, i didnt find it as nice as i would have if i didn't.
post-musical was dinner at NYDC hereen cos Swensen's was packed.
and siaoying drove us all home after dinner. thanks babe! (:

Sunday, 23 July

tho sun's dragonboat(IAG) was tiring, it was also fun!
i'd say, sun session was better than sat's.
cos, i found myself rowing better and i didn't rest at all compared to sat. heh.
however, the biceps have gotten bigger! =\
this is not good! it took me quite awhile to lose the muscle mass and now, it's coming back!
i gotta tone it down soon. as in, chop chop soon!

after dragonboat, bathed, then i ran off for a short while to see the lil one, alvina.
that woman made me run/walk all e way frm Kallang Sea Sports Centre all the way to somewhere near Kallang Stadium!
and i was still carrying my towel. looked so kuku can. haha.

walked all the way to KFC for dinner with the AK peeps.
along the walk there, arul and i played with kimberly and vanessa a couple of games, which both of them took quite awhile to understand. haha.
after dinner, i cabbed home with eugene and arul. yupyup.

Monday, 24 July

it was a badbadbad monday for the 2 sweeties and i. and i shall leave it as that.
not as if things with thePop would improve.
it's NEVER gonna be better if im the only one working at it.
sheesh. so much for wanting to make the relationship better.

but there was something nice in the midst of the bad, the hurt, the anger and yea, the tears. ;)

(for those who don't know, pop means dad.)

i hope fate plays it's cards right and all falls into place.
and yes, you're still the one i want; my one true north.

2006-07-08T14:42:00.000+08:00

I wonder why i still place trust in people despite the fact that they have showed me a betrayal of some sorts. i wouldn't say that i trust them as much as before, perhaps just the simple kind? somehow, a while later, i'd be asking myself if i should even give them that simple trust, since they reared their ugly heads and showed a side i was shocked to know about.

the past few weeks have showed me the many different kinds of people there are out there, they are the ones i still foolishly and quite stubbornly believe are nice and trustworthy people, especially since they are advocators of something that i too, believe and advocate as well.
despite wanting to believe there they are still worth extending the friendship hand and all, im afraid of having my trust misplaced yet again.
cos when you least expect it, in the knife goes into your back, and you find yourself asking why and how in the world can they turn around 360 degrees and say the things they say when in your face, they "in all honesty", said it was "ok" and/or it seems "that they see your side of the story".
to me, that's total bollocks and a pile of whacked shit manz.

the postive thing is that, it was an invaluable learning experience for me. i've truly learnt alot from those situations i found myself in, unwittingly. and i know how to deal with it better should it happen again.
in time to come, i shall prove to those who doubted me, wrong. :)

anyway, let's move on to school matters.

it's been a really stressful week thus far.
2 tests in a space of 3 days.
thank god i didn't put myself to work. it would have been like courting my own death. haha.
i realised that i really really gotta focus, be more hardworking, and stop slacking, cos i flunked the Mobile Application Practical Test. yea. sigh.. ):
how can i possibly expect myself to pass when i didn't even complete the 2nd question? it was a stupid move on my part, really.
i kept doing the 1st question despite not seeing what i was suppossed to achieve, appear after fultile attempts.
jeepers, i should have moved on to the 2nd question, dammit!! ):

i have the 2nd practical test to redeem myself, and i better get an A for it.
else, i can say hello to another sem in NYP, which aint what i want. and hell-NO, would i let myself go there manz.
i've got aust and psychology to think about. not to mention, i have yet to successfully "psycho" the dad about the study loan. HURHUR. :)

the world cup is down to its very last match!
my bet is on ITALY! :D
their match against Germany was exciting, and their ball control was WOAH!!
Cannavaro is really good. his vision on the field and tackles were superb!
oh. and he's really attractive, i must say. heez. :)
but i still prefer Kaka! his eyes are really really nice and they make you not wanna take your own set off them. HAHA. :D

hmmmm....till the next time i update, that's all, for now. :))

2006-06-03T15:19:00.000+08:00

been terribly busy, as usual..what's new eh?
my timetable is really really really killing me manz!!
i literally drag myself to sch everyday, even walking to sch gives me an awful dreadful feeling.
if it aint cos i'm quite broke now, i wld haf taken a cab to sch frm e bus stop i alight everyday.

june is soooo gonna be a super duper uber busy and stressed month ahead.
there's a practical test for Mobile Application Development next wed. and i don't really know much abt it..haiz. :((
there's also SK2 and SK3 camps coming up during the term break (each camp lasts 5 full days.)
i reckon i'd be a zombie when sch starts on e 26th. HAHA. then again, i'm already a zombie now! LOL. :D

i can't wait for the camps to start!!! :)))

Every long lost dream led me to where you are,
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars,
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms.
This much I know is true,
That God blessed the broken road,
That led me straight to you.

Everytime I get lost in a temperamental mood,
You still stay cool.
Just when I think that this life's about to drive me insane,
You take the reins.
Everytime I feel I'm drifting off course,
You're my compass, my one true north.
In a mixed up world,
Only, you make sense to me baby;

I love how you heal,
And I can't believe how alive I feel;
All that I want is to be,
Where you are. :)

after that day, it came back again.
at least the missing did..
where will this lead me to?
i don't wish to fall back into that same old ruck again.

2006-05-22T10:17:00.000+08:00

haiz. i'm SICK!! wit the flu bug and cough.. :((
but at this very moment, i'm feeling a'right! :)
suprisingly, im home on a sun...perhaps it's cos i was too lazy to head our to meet up wit kyrie and pearlyn to the magic shops.
and yes!! im gonna learn MAGIC!! HAHA! :))
when i've master em, i'll mesmerize you'all aye! ;) lolz.

i don't know what to say of my life as of now...
my dreams are seemingly shattered by my dad's want of me to work for a year or two before i head off to aust for uni..
it's like i want to study psychology, which is what i've wanted all along, and you're not allowing me for what reasons i don't know!
i do know perfectly well that there are issues to take note of. i've already done my homework on the course, the fees etc...
all i need of you, is to apply an education loan from Citibank on my behalf. cos knowing you so darn well, there's no way you'd fork out the costs.
you're a miser through and through, period.

what's more, at the end of the course of my uni studies, i will pay back the bank through my own pocket, not yours. so why do you put all your wants on me!?? all my life i've always done things mum's way or your way.
when can i decide my future myself??? its ultimately, my future, you know!?
i don't wish to live my life in regrets and what not.
and i don't wish to look back and have nothing fond and nice to remember about.

if you care about me, love me, you'd understand and help me achieve my dreams.
somehow, the things you do and say...makes me wonder if you dislike my existence.
i can't help but also wonder, if i was a boy instead of a gal, would things have been different..

let the tears flow, the pain i feel inside is much more than the dreams you took away from me.

2006-05-11T13:16:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm...where do i start??
kk...now, e OGLs are having their very 1st event, Xtreme Venture 2 today.
to tink we were the pioneer batch who came up with Xtreme Venture eh..lolz.
oh wells, this only means that i will be graduating from NYP soon!! :)
plans for post-poly life has already started. :)

i'm planning to apply for social science(criminology) in University of New South Wales! lolz. :))
after reading the course details and modules, i was blown away manz! haha. :D
i know damn well it aint related to IT, besides, i was never ever interested in IT to begin with. :)

but, after checking out the careers for the course i wanted, i felt a lil sad. :(
cos, there aint a profession that allows me to put social science(criminology)'s knowledge into play!! :((
so, im toying with three other courses that im also interested in. they are: social science/law, social work/law and psychology ! :)

here are the links:

social science(criminology):
link

social science/law:
link

social work/law:
link

psychology:
link

i've mentioned my strong desire to study overseas to my mum, and she didn't say no.
so, im pretty positive that it's a green light? the only issue is the moolah.
i don't wish to drain my folks' accounts so, i'm gonna try and save as much as i can now. it won't be much but at least it would help some way or another. :)

though entry to UNSW will not be based on poly grades, i will still work hard to get my targeted GPA! :)

edited;

i've decided. im gonna take a bachelor degree in psychology at Murdoch University instead of UNSW! :)
it's gonna take me 5 years to graduate, and this includes 1 year of foundation studies. there goes my youth i guess? HAHA. it's gonna be even longer if i decide to do postgraduate study after doing honours. they say that honours is a good preparation for postgraduate study, so....it's likely it'd happen. lolz. :)

2006-05-01T12:36:00.000+08:00

rights..im back. :D
its been like, 2mths and 3days since the last update? HAHA.
too much has happened since e day i last blogged. so i shall skip it.

of late, a wonderful thang happened to me.
i tot it was here to stay since the 'i_____' thang happened, which was oso ard tis tyme last year.
but, from the looks of it, thangs are indicating dat it's gonna turn out the way it did.
bummer! :(

im praying dat im wrong, and dat it wld eventually turn out fine..
however, after seeing wad ma close frens haf been thru of late, it onli adds weight to ma matter.haiz.screw it manz.

been feeling unwell on and off lately..
waking up tonnes early for sch den i've ever been since year1 is oso starting to take it's toll on me.dreads. :((
gotta be in studying mode by week4, else...getting into an overseas uni wld be harder den it is now. :)

hmmmm..since e hols, i've been spending tonnes of tyme wit kris and kyrie.
they haf become ma pillar of strength, ma advisers, ma confidantes, ma close frens.and vice versa. :))

tis is wad ties me to ma close frens, now and forever:
(it's from a testi i gave dear kyrie a while back..)

Friends. A simple word eh? It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. Who are your friends? Friends are the people that touch ur heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them. They're the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don't judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles. You're tied together by love for the other. Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life.

Many heartfelt thanks and deep love to:

-mei shan(bestie)*
-kristy
-kyrie
-ade
-jac
-sy

And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
Baby, sometimes love just ain't enough

2006-02-28T15:14:00.000+08:00

WOAH!!! *shocked* it's been zillion donkey days since i last blogged eh. hahas.
been super duper uber busy wit proj, ICAs & club matters. k la..i've been far too lazy oso. haha. =p

its exams now!!! by ryte i shouldn't be bloggin..but i'm bored! :(
e next paper is on wed and i've studied quite a bit of SWENG alr, so i'm takin a short break. :)

ROAARR..! i screwed up today's OS paper!!! :'(
made 3 changes dat i SHOULD NOT HAF to the paper, and i've lost 6 marks!! :( + :'(
feel like killing myself manz! rarh. *sulk*

i gotta be more careful on wed manz. can't afford to lose valuable marks..
it might jus deny me of As! =x

oh. decided to change ma blog's template. lolz. did it in e afternoon. nice?? :)

will update more when i'm free, plus in the mood.

till den, ciao!

2006-02-11T12:13:00.000+08:00

2006-01-11T13:12:00.000+08:00

sorry fer the absence... *wipes cobwebs away*
been awfully busy and had no mood ter blog..
guess this is the longest period ever..23days ter be exact.haha.
saw the calendar and realised its gonna be 20days till i turn another year old..
dun tink i'd feel all the hype abt it like i used ter.it falls during CNY and im far too worried abt ma studies ter be able ter enjoy it like i always did..not ter mention dat i'll be hit up, down, left, right and centre wit ICAs, assignments, proj and the usual exams soon..haiz.cant wait fer the hols..at least the stress wld be gone.

haiz..ma finger is still swollen!!! if i dun recover at the end of 3 more treatments, i gotta go cut the blood out! -gasp!- i dun wan!! :(
did it b4 and it sucks.imagine, seeing a sharp razor cut into ur flesh and not feelin any pain whatsoever.imagine the razor cuttin u a few more tymes over the same spot, jus so the blood wld flow, and a syringe drawing blood out of the wound.i dun wanna go thru dat again...*pouts*
i pray it heals soon.... *prays so so so hard*

im stressing over EADEVPJ now...haiz.i gotta get the 3-tiers done soon!! fri's the 1st demo and im at 1st tier onli! ARGH! fri's oso SWENG! haiz.god bless me...!

here's some updates:

[6 Jan]
ma fellow excos celebrated ma bdae early fer me.much much earlier i'd say.lolz.
got a whyte nike cap and a hook pouch. :))
after the bdae celebration, was the angel and mortal revelation.
and ma angel is....xavier! LOL.suspected it was him after the 2nd gift.haha.
fer ma xmas and last gift, dat sweet bloke got me a bouquet of soft toys and a reali cute and cuddly teddy.it came wit a card too! :)))
even steph said it was touchin...haha. =)

gave him a gift dat i put tog myself.lolz.
it was a glass jar which had thin strips of coloured paper and paper hearts inside, tog wit a cute and small teddy.it was the vey first tyme i made paper hearts ok!! xavier, dun drop and break the gift ah....i stayed up till 3am ter do the hearts hor.
anyway, had openhouse meeting thereafer.den headed home.

many thanks ter ma fellow excos fer the bdae gift, esp ter ma angel, xavier!!
no matter wad, ure the bestest angel ever! -huggss- :)

[7 Jan]
went out wit ma peeps frm 4B.was late cos of bro.hmmm...slacked ard town b4 going off tog wit kyrie ter chill wit kristy and ah ger at lido's mac.had work later.
the new MODs are nice and fun...hope it stays dat way. :)

[8 Jan]
wore the whyte nike cap on sun ter support shan fer Rockmaster, in which she got into the finals. :))))
will be watchin her climb on sat fer the finals at Riverside.those interested in watchin rock climbing head down ter Riverside yea?
hope she gets into the top3! :))

tis will be all fer now...

mactick out.

2005-12-19T10:11:00.000+08:00

got home frm ma injured finger treatment awhile back.
injured it yest, during Sports Fiesta.
Sports Fiesta was rather fun..tho initially, it was boring wit those ice-breakin games and all.
it reminds yer of camps and, i din sign up fer a camp so dat explains the feeling...yup.

we, CABAT- Calvin(EI), Anders(Wei Siong), Bernadet, Azimah and Theresa(ME!!) won 3rd!!! :))

we were surprised dat we got into the top 8, as we din tink the points we got wld qualify us, but we did!! lolz. :)
next, we got into the top5(cos 2teams had the same points), and AGAIN! we were surprised dat we made it. cos our points frm the paper fall game seemed ter fall short of the other teams'.

we got 3rd in the bannna relay but the officials failed to spot fer the 3rd fastest team and hence the 3rd placing was in doubt. we were very sure we got 3rd and i did showed the ping pong ball up ter an official standin at the sideline. so, we told one of the top official dat his other officials were onli concerned abt the top2 teams dat they did not spot fer the 3rd..and since there was no way ter determine who was reali 3rd, we shared the 3rd prize wit Mobile Team. it's 10bucks of Royal Sporting House sports voucher fer each of us..so it aint bad...

the Royal Sporting House at Yishun was rather small and din haf much variety, so we decided ter go fer the one at Suntec when we're free ter get our stuff tog..(the voucher is a whole 50bucks, so we cant split it up). had dinner at LJS..slacked and chatted till we felt it was tyme ter leave..

fer the first tyme, i took bus home...i haf a direct bus in 852 ter get home, but always tot it was slow...but i was wrong..might be using the bus concession pass come next month instead of the train concession.

ma darn finger is fcukin swollen manz!!! :((((((((((
and i cant bend it at all!! :(((((((((
it was fcukin painful during the treatment can!!! :((((((((((
fer the first tyme i winced during treatment! been ter dat shop fer ma wrist and feet injuries b4 and tis one hurt the fcukin most! *wince*

sorry fer the vulagrities, but it was reali reali reali dat dat PAINFUL!!!!
got it injured during the handicap bball game..
one of the dude frm another team, swiped the ball away, causing it ter hit str into ma finger!! and frm ma experience in netball, i knew it wasn jus a minor ball-hit-finger injury. haiz.
got a reali bad finger injury frm Capt's Ball in sec2, and i procrastinated treatment, causing ma middle finger ter become somewhat bigger den its twin. and ryte after the game, ma middle finger swelled into the size of a hotdog can!! it looked sooo fugly-ugly and wrong oso. *pouts*

aint workin today cos no slots fer me ter work..
going bak ter the kitchen now...
will be workin on thurs nite and sat & sun's noon shift...
im tryna find replacement fer sat cos theres a xmas party at shan's place. will be sleepin over oso...

it wld be quite a hassle ter head ter work the day after, but i need ter work manz...din work at all tis week and im saving fer somethang. *winks ter kristy* :)
babe, i wanna see CHESTER!! lolz. hes sooo cute!! :)
hope yer feeling beta now...do take care yea? :) -huggss-
let's go clubbin again sometyme soon! :) i enjoy clubbin wit yer most! haha.

for the first time,
things felt that way.
it was the first of its kind.
im past that phase,
my shadow fades and merges into puddles of unknowns.

rain falls,
i close my eyes,
when they open,
all feels right again

mactick winced out.

2005-12-16T15:34:00.000+08:00

hey'all!!! :)))
damn sorry fer the lack of updates.. *tips hat*
been reali busy wit alot the past 2weeks..so much so, i wish ter go off ter somewhere nice fer some tyme-out. im totally drained! haven had sleeps dat last more den 4 or 5 hrs fer months!!
and i reali reali need some rest manz. wit those assignments dat are dued in the comin weeks, ma sem proj stuff and those impendin ICAs...im findin it reali hard ter get the rest i need..haiz. do pardon me if i seem kinda dead at tymes....cos im still sick frm last week..the cough is much beta now tho.yay!! :)

yest was the finals of Sports Championship 2005/06! :)
im proud ter say it's a success, tho we did had some hicups here and there.. :)
many heartfelt thanks ter ma fellow EXCOS and OGL-Seniors fer all the hard work put in!! *bows* -huggss- :)

big and AP thanks ter mr log man, andrew!
thanks fer workin yer magic wit Mr Ivan. lolz! -winks-
take care of the cut on yer knee yea?? -huggss- :)

ma personal thanks ter the SPORTS pple!
guys, thanks fer all the effort, hard work and sleepless nights(if it happened). reali appreciate it lots! do rest well now..
-huggss- :))

ter ma 2 CO-ICs, Azimah and Jing Yi(JY)...
many many heartfelt and sincere thanks fer everythang you guys did and gave ter Sports Champ!! it was a pleasure working wit you guys! do rest well now, and focus on yer studies more! :))))
-huggss-

ter the top3, thanks fer yer support and help rendered!
-huggss- :)

cant wait fer the 1week hols!
there's gonna be chalet and Camp UP! :))
hopefully, some rest too... *cross fingers*

was hoping ter get some quality tyme wit shan tis weekend.but she's going off ter KL wit Jin Siong tis sat.yup.
it's been ages since the 2 of us did stuff tog so yea.. i miss yer babe! :)))))))
-huggss-

Enterprise Application Development written test next week..35% weightage..muz study real hard fer tis manz.
haf decided or rather, i aimed ter try and get As fer Human Computer Interaction(HCI), Software Engineering(SWENG) and Enterprise Application Development(EADEV).
fer OS, a B+ wld be great. as fer POA, a B or B+ wld do...yup. :) if can get an A i wldnt mind! lolz. ;)

mactick out.

you turn your back and leave,
your shadows slowly fading and merging into puddles of unknowns...

2005-12-08T14:27:00.000+08:00

gd news!! ma voice is bak!!!!!! :)))))))) lolz!
but i've got bad news oso......im coughin like fcuk now! :(((
its soooo bad dat ma back wld ache frm all the coughin.
i'd cough all day and nite mcm i got TB liddat..

yest nite, i went ter the toilet 5tymes!!! from drinkin too much water!
coughed frm 2plus till 8plus in the morn.
yer can say dat i practically din slp at all. cos each tyme i coughed, i'd drink water, hoping ter stop coughin but NOOOO!!!! i kept coughin and coughin like every 10secs?? and im not exaggeratin...mum woke up 3tymes cos of it. sorry ter make u worry..

i hate being unwell manz. been feelin lethargic n all lately...
i wun see e doc fer somethang which i can recover after takin some med and rest.
haven been havin much rest fer quite awhile...
been busy wit Sports Championship 2005/06, studies(tho i skipped lec and am late at tymes..lolz.) and work.
perhaps i need ter run ter de-stress...reali miss the feelin of beads of sweat runnin down ma bod...
hope ter run wit cher tmr...den bathe b4 headin off ter work.
i kinda dread work lately...cos at the end of the day, i feel reali reali drained ter work. haiz. need the dough, so jus work lo.
it doesn help dat im still unwell....
maybe...jus maybe..some1 used vodoo magic on me?? lolz.
yea, kinda absurd..but u never noe do yer? haha.
k la...beta start practisin ma POA cos i wun haf tyme fer it tmr, fri, sat n sun...
haiz. mon after POA ICA is HCI ICA can??? 2 modules on the same day and one after another!! bleah!
den on tues, theres OS ICA! wth. can jus die la...
tis sem is fcuked up! but i cant give up dat easily...
nothin will get me down...and i reali mean NOTHIN!
shall keep ma goal in sight and work fer it!
melb uni, wait fer me! i wan yer and onli yer! ma precious....... lolz!

different paths lie before us
what they bring are uncertainties,
that'll leave us pondering endlessly.
which path we eventually take,
we hafta live by em.

the path i took, the decisions i made, came too late.
perhaps i was afraid...
that wad happened, wld happen again.
i'll stick by ma guns.
and tmr will be a beta day fer me. :))

mactick swat ah!

2005-12-06T13:15:00.000+08:00

Daniel Powter - Bad Day

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

Howie Day - Collide

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

mactick out

2005-12-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

haiz.i LOST MA VOICE!!!!!!!!!!! sobz..and its soooo freakin bad!!!!!!!!!!!
whenever pple hear ma voice, they laugh or/and imitate me! and its not funny can!
tease a lil is fine...but ter be teased endlessly...is NOT! *pouts.
i wish ma voice wld come bak....i miss talkin! when pple talk, i wanna talk oso....but i cant!! :((
esp when everyone in the room talks and u feel like talkin oso, but cant?? -jus sucks big tyme!
argh! i feel like bangin ma head against the wall manz...it's like, im not myself at all?! and its soooo freakin unbearable not being myself..I NEED MA VOICE BAK!!! im soooo fcukin miserable..................haiz.

i've decided ter start puttin effort into readin and understandin POA. i never read more den a page u see..
riza say once slack, its gonna be a goner. and i noe. been there b4 and i regret lettin myself go there. its perhaps the first and onli thang i'd ever regret.
oh wells...i beta start takin ma studies seriously frm today onwards manz. the ICAs starts comin next week! productive studyin durin breaks and all shld help i guess..? lolz.
i reali wanna do well tis sem and finally get the GPA i've been aiming fer...if not fer year1 sem2 proj grade, i wld haf been well within ma target le! dat stupid penguin's fault!!!
nvm. i've got 2 sems ter put thangs ryte. and i beta do so...
i dun wan ter kiss goodbye ter overseas uni manz.

haiz...workin tmr! how ter work in tis condition???? haiz.
dun work no money ter pay hp bill, transport, new batch of contacts, contacts lotion, club's bdae fund and jacket..haiz. if onli dad gives me more fer allowance and pay ma club's stuff fer me..cos im reali freakin tired ter work after sch. it simply drains alot outta me. haiz.
manz...im 'haiz-in' alot sia..beta quit doing it.

its gettin late le..beta slp soon...tho its actually still early ter me since i always hit the sack at abt 3plus am, but cos i can NEVER make it in tyme fer thur's 1st lesson, which is a tut, im tryna make myself tink its tyme fer me ter slp, so dat i can make it in tyme fer ma lesson fer the very FIRST tyme! lolz... :))

fid, pls take care of yer health yea?

edited;
lynette helped me find a replacement fer tmr le. thanks sooo much babe!! thanks schenelle oso.. :)
dun tink the custs can take it oso...they prolly break into laughters like the way ma frens did. haiz. i hope theres no more laughters tmr.... :)

a voice-less mactick signin out..

2005-11-28T15:03:00.000+08:00

am back after 5days, missed me?? lolz. :)
there was a SBM VS SIT match today at 11..was supposed ter play but din turn up.
cos i was havin a migraine dat was worse den last nite's, and had a sore throat.
was feelin damn under the weather, and ma head was hurtin sooo much i had no choice but ter pass it. besides, i gotta work later at 1..so the best option was ter rest.
on the bus ter work, i was burnin inside manz. it felt sooo uncomfortable and horrid inside... :(
camomile tea wif honey sure helped a great deal! :)
the sore throat became beta, but i was still a lil unwell..but there were occasional bouts where i felt a'right and well. :)

met up wif art, ash, merv, steph and nat at lucky plaza's pool.
slacked ard cos i din wanna play..
steph and i entertained each other since, we were the onli pple there who weren playin.haha.
dropped by hereen ter see kris.
after dat, went ter LJS ter join ash, steph and nat.
went home thereafter.

oh! got ma pay cheque! hehheh...can shop a lil i guess...? lolz.
still waitin fer dad ter gimme me the cash frm ma bursary.he gotta give it ter me soon manz...i gotta get ma batch of contacts soon.haven pay ma hp bill yet oso...gotta wait till mum bank in the cheque fer me.

bestie's gonna be busy the next 2weeks wif sch..me lolz.still slackin!
reckon the ICAs are gonna flood me in 2weeks..dunno if bestie and i will haf tyme fer each other not, cos both of us haf CCAs stuff oso...haiz. i miss her!!! *pouts.
jac has gone ter HK again! so good...can travel again......
me? hah! i've never travelled out of spore since 11.
and dat tyme was a Malacca trip with ma class, plus 3 other classes plus, MA FAMILY!
if ma family dun come along...i cant go. how sad ryte? haha..

hmmmm...kinda figured out who ma angel is after receivin the 2nd gift on fri.
he got me a nice hardcover notebook, Meji chocs plus a card. :))
the other tyme he got me the movie GOAL's DVD can??
ma angel is the sweetest ever! even sue agreed! :) lolz.
he's gift came at a good tyme cos i reali needed chocs ter de-stress.
sports champ has been a frustration in some ways.not the proposal tho...but the bookin of facilities.the sch system sucks manz! we shall see how the bookin goes...hopefully, it wun cause too much unhappiness amongst the stud.

im cravin fer sakae sushi buffet now...if anyone wanna go, pls chio me along k?

mactick out.

2005-11-23T15:03:00.000+08:00

today was a freakin rush day!
and it was kinda bad in some ways oso.
came ter sch at 1025 ter meet wei siong abt the printing of stuff.
gotta make changes ter the minor errors in e forms and posters and flyers.
damn sorry ter haf awoken bern up ter make the corrections.im soo sorry babe..

was rushin fer ma 12o'clock lesson at the same tyme.
enterted class at 1215.
told teacher i got some club stuff ter settle, will be back soon.
left ma bag and went back down ter lvl5.
in the end?
i din return at all till lesson was over, and i was marked ABSENT! :((
haiz.tis teacher teaches me fer 2 modules can??
he's the lecturer fer ma Enterprise App Dev and Enterprise App Dev Proj!
crucial modules can!!?
bet he's got a bad impression of me le.. *pouts.
after dat incident, i had his tut again!! wad luck manz. sense the mood?
tis tyme its the proj tut.
e earlier one was the Enterprise App Dev tut.
juz realised im having his lab tmr!! argh! damn! why sooo suay??
haiz.

had trouble mass sendin emails ter all SIT stud oso..
kept havin delivery failure! :((
in the end, called ms loh up and asked her ter help mass send it ter SIT stud. but she said shes unable ter send it ter EI and MIT stud.

at 6, rushed ter pass CK ma admin card fer nite lect.
den rushed like a mad woman ter meet kris at the atrium fer Harry Potter, cos its scheduled at 630. been dying ter watch it since last wed. :)
the 630 show had onli the 1st row available.
so we got the 7pm show instead. got the 2nd row tho...and ma neck ached!! bleah.
ate mos prior ter the start of the show. their coffee milkshake was nice!
but macs choc milkshake is much beta!!! :))))

the show was good, but the changes and the missing parts in the movie made it quite disappointing...
expected ter see some cool action frm the quidditch world cup, ter see dobby cute and hilarious side, ter see the Durselys, but they werent shown!! wasted. :(

went home after it ended.
damn shagged frm all the rushings today..
dun wanna go thru sucha day again..i need more beauty slp!

*yawnz* gonna bathe and hit the sack soon..
nites pple...

mactick zonks out! :)

2005-11-21T14:02:00.000+08:00

wth.mcm i sooo free wanna track down yer blog? good grief!
din even noe yer had one even. *shakes head*

had a farewell dinner with ma other NYDC peeps at Marche.
cos glady's gonna fly back ter philippines on tues..
bye glady! all the best in yer future endeavours! bon voyage! *waves goodbye. :)

aint gonna go fer tmr's morn lec..can never make it on tyme manz.
tried the past 2weeks but still late.haiz. :(
im shagged.haf yet ter bathe...and i smell of mush madness piz manz.lolz.
its likely dat i'll be watchin Hary Potter on tues with kris. :)))
cant wait manz! watchin the thrillers and playin the online games made me even more excited!! haha.

oooohhhh...i muz say tis.
thanks very much ter kris fer the very nice and meaninful testi! :)))
it made me smile and reminisce alot abt our stc days..
thanks babe! -huggss-
see yer on tues... i hope

k la..gonna bathe le..

mactick zonks out!

2005-11-20T06:01:00.000+08:00

Simon Webbe - Lay Your Hands

Sometimes life can be a burden
Tryna stay one step ahead
I feel the world upon my shoulder each time
I'm standing out on the edge
And my hopes have all deserted me
Like they washed away in the sand
And it's hurting my pride
Tryna survive
But i know i stand a chance

When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.

Feel this road is getting longer now
And i'm too far away from home
Still I gotta keep on moving on
But I can't do it on my own
Baby keep my head above water
Help me swim for my life
'Coz the game is getting harder
The strain is gettin stronger
And I can only face the fight

When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me..

'Til I'm healed again,
Rediscovered my strengths,
Those bitter blues are gone...
Oh, gone...

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.

Come and lay your hands on me.

i sooo like tis song manz... :)

2005-11-17T17:59:00.000+08:00

juz did a check on how much ma blog is worth...

My blog is worth $8,468.10.
How much is your blog worth?

WOOT!!! din expect it ter be worth tis much..lolz..but i like! :)))

2005-11-16T17:56:00.001+08:00

hmmmmm...went meridien hotel (if u guys tot dat there was somethang else involved, clean dat mind of urs!)
went meridien with jac ter gym..since ma pass with cali expired and i dun wanna sign up membership.
jac's sch, SMA has access ter it and it's nice place ter gym i muz say...quiet and the atmosphere's gd.
ran 6KM as usual...gonna be doing dat whenever i gym.

after gym went ter the food court ter makan.
had yami yoghurt. blueberry flavour. it was yummylicious! :))
shared some grilled chicken leg meal with jac..tasted as nice as the popular stall at PS.
after makan...walked ter somerset stat ter go back sch.
on the way there, met a NUT along centrepoint..
the NUT hung up on me when he mistook dat i was ending the conversation.when i was actually sayin bye ter jac, hu was going ter cali ter bathe and meet tony.and not him.
was abt ter tell him i was headin back ter sch oso but he hung up la...lan diao manz.and dat NUT even took a LONDON cab back ter sch whereas i took the train lo.and i was standin the whole journey back.unlike him, sittin comfortably in a LONDON cab!bleah.boh hoe qio.

ooooohhhh...theres gonna be a special event in sports champ 2005/06!
we are gonna be playin against the staff of SIT!! LOLZ!
us, EXCOS against our fellow lecturers??? dats funny shit manz..haha.
aint sure wad sport games we'll be playin..
it's gonna be either street soccer or capt's ball.yup.

k la.zonkin off le.

ciao! mactick sprints out!

2005-11-14T17:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BDAE MUQSIT(emo2)!!! :)

finally hit the big 2-0 eh...haha.
counted down fer him on ma MSN nick yest nite.
and i muz say tis, i was the FIRST ter wish him!
colin lost ter me...ahahahahhahahha... :)
in lab..HCI lesson(Human Computer Interaction).
gotta do flash.but clueless bout it.lolz.

hmmm...shall talk abt the weekends..

[fri]
black was borin!!! the turnout was lousy..
if we had made it ter zouk on tyme at 1130..
wen can get all 8 of us in fer FREE!
but there were no cabs... :(
wad yer drivers dun wan make no cash?? lolz.
head home the earliest as usual.cos had dodgeball video at 10.

[sat]
woke up at abt 8plus fer dodgeball video.
but a mishap happened at home.
dun wanna talk abt it.
had dinner with jac and ade and shan at harbour.
had pastamania.
got home and found ma wireless adapter ter be down! like wth.
the onli source of entertainment at home is gone! :(((

[sun]
worked.was a few mins late.(wonder wads with me being late these days...)
haiz.work was ok la...
met jac and ade and their fren, daryl fer dinner.
ate at sakae sushi(wheelock)..gab and kia fang were workin dat nite.yup.
after dinner, jac went ter meet tony...(as usual..)
dat guy always interrupt us wan lo..
when we sms/call jac when they're out, he get sooo particular abt it.
mcm yer sooo impt and princely eh?
head ter bed earlier den usual cos ma wireless was down.
but i did go online..used dad's com.
cos use his com, i had ter go off early.... :(

dats abt ma weekends..

2005-11-11T17:54:00.000+08:00

in clubroom now...slackin..
nuttin ter do so im bloggin! lolz.
going black with kris, kyrie, joyce, muq and colin later in the night.
tink the two guys going with jin siong and co..
kris is havin a lil of fever..hope she gets beta soon. :))
tonight will be ma last tyme clubbin till the hols comes in dec.sad case manz.. :/
nora(ma supervisor at NYDC)'s bf is a bartender there.
most prob can get free drinks when she comes after she's done with work.haha!! :)
k la...tink i beta go home..makan den chao ter meet the gals! :))))

groove baby groove....oh yea! :))) LOLZ!

2005-11-09T17:59:00.000+08:00

*yawnz* had Green Campus Day juz now..
SIT Club won 3rd! lolz.... :))
the fact dat we onli started on our "Paper Pyramid" yest nite, it can considered a'right..
plannin wasnt reali gd but it's defintely somethang we will work on.yup.
theres gonna be dodgeball video makin on sat..sounds kinda fun! haha.
proposal muz be in by tis week...it's 90% done.onli alignment prob..yea...

am in the clubroom all alone..haha.
Kah Yip, Xavier, Natalie and Ridz went ter eat.
JY, Azi and Bern are at level 5 tying up loose ends of the proposal.when they're done, they'll holla at me and we'all gonna makan tog! hee.. :)

aint sure why im on a high now leh...lolz.
oh wells...dats the least of my concern.
it juz hit me dat i noe shit abt wads going on in ma studies.
yea its the 3rd day of sch onli...but if i dun do somethang, im soooo gonna kiss gdbye ter overseas uni! :/

haiz..i was late fer the 1st lesson on the 1st day of sch(Mon)!
was the LAST person to enter POA tut lesson, tho i was on tyme (10mins allowance).
it aint nice ter enter class last..esp tut.
and if dat aint bad, i was OSO the LAST ter enter Enterprise Application Development Project tut! ARGH!!!
last sem, i was ALWAYS ON TYME. NEVER late fer lessons..now? hur! I'M LATE!!
wads becomin of me manz....
cant exactly push tis to wads going on at home oso...cos untimately, its me.period.

oh.started a joint blog with ade and jac.
thee three of us make up the Lame Gang! LOLZ!
the link is 1st on da list..go check it out! :))))
gonna slack at jac's workplace b4 going home..i sooo miss dat place! :))
most imptly, i miss dat babe!
k la....im gonna zonked out fer a while b4 makan-in.

ciao! mactick signin out! :))

2005-11-04T17:52:00.000+08:00

wanted ter blog after comin home but b4 I could get ma arse down ter do it...
dad turned off the wireless.DAMN! :(

decided ter put today's happenings down in microsoft word, b4 putting it on blogger cos it was a gooooooooddddd day! :)

k...went swimming with ade at Jalan Besar Swimmin Complex.
dat gal din wake me up at 10 as agreed. she woke me up at 8PLUS!
she's lucky mum was vacuumin so I was kinda awake...
Anyway, after some laps in the teachin pool (ade wanted ter swim there instead of the big pool so yea.), a stranger approached me.
He asked if I could swim freestyle fer him ter see as he liked the way I swam it.
After showin him, he said these...

Stranger: u swim gd.i like yer kicks.
Me: -smile- thanks sir.
Stranger: do u swim fer yer sch?
Me: err..i used to.in pri sch..but haven swam at all till today.
Stranger: I see...ure gd..

Den he went off ter the changing room.
A short while later, ade and I had ter move ter the big pool cos kids frm St Michael were gonna haf lessons at the teachin pool.
While chattin, the stranger approached us again.

Stranger: girl, dun stop swimming..ure a gd swimmer.
Me: -smile- thanks alot.

den he went off.
wasn't expectin sucha compliment comin ma way cos its been abt 6yrs since i last swam real proper..? as in laps..yea.but i'll take it! :)
a while later, we headed fer the changing room.
bought lunch b4 going ter ade's hse, which was a walkin dist frm the complex.
at the hse, i bathed and watched ma GOAL dvd, while ade did her club's minutes.
lolz..finally got ma arse down ter watch the dvd ma angel bought fer me!
thanks once again angel, whoever u are! :)
cant wait ter noe yer identity on xmas! -grins
din manage ter watch the whole movie tho...
cos ade was gonna go fer her haircut appt which was at 7,and I had ter go home fer dinner.

headed ter town after dinner ter meet up with ade and we slacked ard town while waitin fer jac ter get off work...
the trio of us ended up at Meridien eatin bbq-ed chicken wings and drinkin sugar cane.
haiz..the three of us aint gonna meet up as often as now when ade and i start sch on Mon.
it's kinda sad...cos I like the way thangs are now..? yea..
It oso means no clubbin with kyrie..doubt ma folks wld allow me since hols endin..
We'll see if thangs look up fer me..yup. :)

k..kinda shagged..gonna hit the sack soon...
will leave u guys with some pics frm swimmin and deepavali dinner at shan's..

ade and me in the changin room

it's me! muahahahahaha... :)))

ma freakin broad shoulders..(gotta cut down on the weights!)

shan and me! i sooo love dat babe! :))))))

jac and me! she's LAMEST rmb dat k pple...LOLZ! :))

ahem! presentin jin siong...the crazy dude! LOLZ. :)

runnin the race of our life.. (and i won! haha.) :)

monkey-in ard.lolz..

me and ma shaolin fist going after jac

and she shot me!! (sings ter the song: bang bang she shot me down...bang bang)

and so.....i WAS DEAD! wahahahha :))

we aren doing nuthin! clean dat minds of urs, u perverts!!

jac din wanna leave me when the bus came, so she hugged the lamp post! haha :)

jac sayin gdbye ter me...(act cute sey!)lolz. =p

mactick freestyled out!

2005-11-03T17:51:00.000+08:00

BOO! SELAMAT HARI RAYA ter all ma muslim peeps!
dun eat too much ah...later all the hard work frm fastin goes ter waste.lol.
worked yest n today cos its double pay!! :)))
if onli they pay double fer eve...i'd work str shift! haha. :)

took lotsa pics at shan's deepavali dinner.
ma bestie is indian-chinese so yea.
there were soooo many food manz! ate till i was stuffed!
after dinner, sent jac off at her bus stop, which was opp mine.
while waitin fer her bus, we took lotsa LAME pics.LOLZ!
when u put LAMER + LAMEST tog, u'll get a very CRAZY outcome! -grins.

....toodles. :)

mactick out.

2005-11-01T17:49:00.000+08:00

firstly, HAPPY DEEPAVALI ter all ma indian peeps! :))

yest was sports champ trial run...
everythang was going well till i accidentally headshot sharon during dodgeball. =/
ma target was xavier but i used far too much strength, and the volleyball went off target and hit sharon rite in the face! felt reali bad and guilty can....haiz.
im sooooo sorry gal!

art the geek came in the midst of our trial run..
he was totally geeky and funnily cute manz.haha.
after trial run, there was debrief.
changes has to be made ter the sport games rules.
dat in turn wld delay our final submission date.yup.
but we'll def get it done in tyme.yep.

after trial run everyone slacked outside clubroom...
Merv, Azzy and i were sharing our F&B experiences b4 Wana and Ridz joined us.
everyone had soo many thangs ter say dat Azzy kept delaying the tyme ter go home.lolz...
we'll prolly continue during Camp UP or somethang.
oooohhhh...! everyone had sunburn frm trial run manz.
Merv looked like he was drunk or somethang.ahahahha..
Wana seemingly had blusher on.haha.
Nat's arms were lobster-red! lolz.
Xavier look funny with his red face too.heh..
i was burnt oso..juz a lil at the shoulders.
u can say dat i was the onli one who kinda survived! LOLZ. :)))

here's some pics frm trial run...there wld haf been more if the cam din die halfway thru trial run.

Merv and Sue slackin in clubroom b4 trial run..

EXCOS warmin up fer trial run.

Sharon, Wei Siong and Calvin(EI)

oooohhh....look at their bums! lolz...

Nat doing squats..lolz.

poor cher fracture her arm...tho on MC, she came! *claps* :)

look at em go! haha.

look at these two defenders manz! LOL!

Chloe and me! :)

playin peeka-boo with Calvin(MIT).lolz.

mr log man, drew and me! :)

Sharon and me! i'm soo sorry abt the headshot gal...sorry. :)

one of ma 2CO-ICs, JY and me.(Azzy's missin!!) lolz. :)

Wana and me in clubroom b4 trial run

Sue and me outside clubroom b4 trial run.

me and ma Total90! :)))))

ciao! mactick runnin out.

2005-10-30T17:48:00.000+08:00

tis entry is gonna be a dedication ter ma LOVES.lolz.

first up! ma bestie, mei shan! :)))))

SHAN aka NON-LAME! babe, ure the bestest thang dat ever happened ter me.wld never ever forget all dat u've done fer me..the tymes we shared are one hella crazy and fun eh..lolz.
thanks fer pullin me out of ma hole in upper sec.if it wasnt fer yer...pple wun see the theresa now...yup!
the memories we had tog wld always be etched in ma heart......
babe, i miss yer lots..lets meet up whenever possible k?
love yer! do take care yea? and continue training hard fer sychro!
-huggss- *muackss!* :))))

LAME & LAMEST! u two kukuheadz go hk and left LAMER(me) here......*pouts!*
make me miss yer two like shit!
beta buy nice stuffz back ter pacify me...LOLZ! kidkid.i aint a kid no more.haha.me young adult manz! lol.
hurry home can....got stuff ter bombard yer two with.ahahaha..
love yer both! :))
-huggss-

JAC aka LAMEST! ma gym-in partner! u ah..say ma arms too big all the tyme.make me stop carryin weights..*bleah* but it's a good thang....ma arms look beta now.lolz.. :)
gal, thanks fer always being there ter listen ter all ma crap, tho it's always the same old thang.haha.yer always noe wad im tryna say when words dun reali express ma inner feelings..ure simply ma "dear"! :)) lolz...
how i wish dat tony wld stop makin yer frown after those phone calls...u frown, i frown noe?? haha.
go, go, go shortie(shawny)! LOLZ! love yer!
-huggss-

ADE aka LAME! thanks fer lendin me the cam! reali appreciate it lots! tho i've been using it onli fer me, myself n i.haha. :))
u and i face pretty much the same thang, tho urs a lil diff.
its hard i noe.....but we gotta do wad we gotta do rite?
u can do it gal! i noe u can.dun rush it yea? take it slow and easy and soon, u'll succeed. :))
thanks fer listenin ter ma crap oso...haha.tho u dun reali understand it as much as jac, i appreciate the listenin ear! i'll help u out with Rockamania after i'm done with ma Sports Champ k...and, we'll definitely go aust fer uni after poly.yup!
lets aim fer sch of 8 yea! lolz. love yer!
-huggss-

CAR! hows life in aust now?? ade said u din make as much noise as last tyme...lolz.
dats gd eh...less noise = less pain on the ears..haha.kidkid! :)
when u return, we die die haf ter go wakeboardin yea?? im dying ter get ma adrenaline up ter the MAX! muahahahahha!
do give in at tymes ter YX k...dat guy is reali determined ter make yer real happy and give u wadever he possible can...so give and take yea?
dun let the poor dude do all the work k?
when u two eventually become one, nothin will take u guys apart....rmb dat k. :)
manz...wish i had a guy cookin up a candlelightS dinner fer me...u lucky gal! haha..take note of the "S" hor! lolz.
cant wait fer yer ter be home! :)))
-huggss-

2005-10-28T16:48:00.000+08:00

while eatin dinner a while ago(had sandwich ala Subway)...
mum started rattlin off a list, which she gotten frm our country club's gym head instructor, on the diff foods and the calories it contains.

mum: wa..Nasi Bryani wit chicken calories so high..Nasi Goreng oso..

me: (eating and tinkin ter myself)
im eatin ma dinner and ure tryna spoil ma appetite??

mum: Hokkien Prawn Mee 615cal?...yadayada blahblah blabberins of calories...

me: (eating AND STILL tinkin ter myself)
wth..ure reali doing tis to me??
im freakin eatin fer god sake! wanna enjoy ma meal oso cannot!

mum: skimmed milk is beta den fresh milk..calories almost twice lesser..

me: (eating AND STILL tinkin ter myself!)
wa...tak boleh tahan manz...im stickin ter ma fresh milk no matter wad..
MUM! PLS stop on the calories! ure drivin me up the wall!

mum: (but she still continues)....no mayonaisse, butter, kaya or
magarine..eh..see...u beta dun eat soo much mayo anymore.(coincidentally, i
asked fer mayo fer ma sandwich earlier)

me: (eating AND STILL TINKIN VERY MUCH ter myself!!)
wa kau ey...ure killin me manz!!! i love ma MAYO thank you very much!
NOBODY is gonna make ME stop eatin ma MAYO and WHIP CREAM!
-CHEERZ from ALL MAYO and WHIP LOVERS!-
i LOVE em very much, no thank you fer the lessons on the calories intake *nods!

i couldnt tahan the calories talk so i ate real quick, wash ma plate and head off ter ma room fer some PEACE! i dun believe in NOT eatin the foods i LOVE.
i ONLI believe in eatin less of it AND exercise regularly...been hittin da gym with jac since hols started..but haven step into it da whole of tis week. :(
i miss da gym..miss runin 6KM++..i oso miss lookin at xiao hei and xiao bai.lolz...

manz...im cravin fer coke + sprite + hershey's choc sauce + whip!! :)))
haven had dat since i started waitside at NY..
i miss coldside..can down as much whip as i wan. *pouts!*

cabbed with bob ter sch today.
we were carryin tons of newspapers fer the green campus day activities!
turned out, wei siong and andrew came ter sch oso.
waited quite awhile fer em ter come up and open the door fer us.
alex and hui shan came up fer awhile b4 going down.
slacked at club room till abt 4 b4 leavin sch with bob and calvin(MIT).was online till dinner.

dinner wasnt enjoyable ter tis mayo and whip cream lover cos of ma mum..
spoilt ma mood...*grumbles*
mum is startin ter be BOTH health AND weight conscious.dun get me wrong...it's a good thang..but, can we not haf tis conversation when im enjoyin ma meal?? it kills da mood.

rite now, mum is tryna psycho dad into payin fer ma drivin lessons upfront.
but its turnin into an argument... :(
haiz.i hate arguments, quarrels, watever...as long as voices are raised, i dislike it.
i pray dat mum wld be able ter convince dad ter say yes manz.....
i wanna be at the driver's seat, drivin ma peeps ter sch, town, and anywhere they fancy! wldnt dat be nice??
-grins.
if yer guys wan rides, beta pray fer me!! (u guys muz chip in a lil fer petrol too yea?)
i aint a rich gal noe..ahahhaha.
if dad says yes ter drivin..hehheh(rubs hands in glee)...
i'll start savin up fer a car! im dead serious k! lolz.
but first....i muz shop! ahahahhaha... :))
im outta clothes u see...heh.

manz..am workin tmr frm 12-6.cant go sch ter play Risk with the others.kinda miss conquering lands.haha.
tonight's 4th draft submission..waitin fer azzy's reply.
hopefully, 5th draft wld be the last..lol.
mon is our 1st trial run..cant wait! :)
1st event WILL BE A SUCCESS! yea manz!
*pumps fist*

cheerz!
mactick signnin out!

2005-10-27T16:47:00.000+08:00

FINALLY I'VE GOT INTERNET IN MA ROOM!!! :))))

bought the USB adapter yest frm Sim Lim Square.
fixed it up yest nite after gettin home frm work.
work was ok.bought dad "Spike" frm Big O.
intended ter get him durian pufffs fer his bdae but din haf the cash...now dat i've got the money, i got him "Spike". :)

was supposed ter open the club room fer the green department but turned out they aren gonna go ter sch.
thank god i din wake up early manz...wld haf made a wasted trip.

called jac while she was at the airport.
ade and her are going ter HK..leavin tis poor & lonely me here in spore... :(
ade is in HK alr.she was on an earlier flight.yup.
dat babe called me a while back! :)
glad ter hear frm her but i wun be dat glad ter receive ma hp bill....lolz.
i miss the both of em manz...at tis point in tyme, i reali need em lots!!
dun wanna bug bestie..she's busy wit trainings & sch..
will fill her in on ma life soon..tyme is always against us manz..damnit!

bro is damn hardcore on maple manz.
since he got the wireless last week, he's been on it frm 7plus AM till 12plus AM!
i wld never use the com fer soooo freakin long.it's like insane?!
being a reali goooood gal stayin home today.. :)
k la...it's cos jac & ade aren in spore.
i miss em lots now.......haiz.

wrist and foot injury haf finally recovered! :)
thank god manz...there was sooo many thangs i couldnt do while injured.
im starvin but ma lazy arse wun budge..........haiz.
k la...blog if im in da mood.gotta do proposal.

update

shit manz.dad say unless i can pay fer ma own drivin license & haf a car, i beta not take it.WTH.
i pay fer the basic & advanced theory & all myself, u pay fer me the pract upfront first cannot meh...not as if i wun pay yer back! selfish moron!
so wad no car now...doesnt mean in the future dun haf...
everytyme need money ter pay for miscellaneous stuff always say no money.WTH.
can buy sooo many freakin crystals & jades but cant pay fer ma sch stuff!
im payin other stuff myself alr..bus transport, hp bill, contacts lenses & lotion.
im so f***in broke i cant even shop! wad more do u f***in wan me ter pay?!
NYDC puts me ter work onli once a week fer the hols.not as if i can do anythang bout it.

mcm i like havin ma pockets up soo tight.
i reali need adidas ter call me up manz.i'll work ma arse off if need be.
can muti-task & balance studies & SIT club tog.aint as if it's the very 1st tyme i juggle soo many thangs at once.im more den capable of dat manz! *pumps fist*

sorry fer the vulgarities.

Marcos Hernandez - If You Were Mine

If you were mine
I'd be your everything
And you would be the only thing
That I would ever need
If you were mine
I would tell everyone
That you are the only one
That I could ever want

Everything I dream about
Everything I talk about
One thing I can't live without
I wanna get closer to you
Can't stand being far away
Knowin' that you don't feel the same way
Watchin’ it bring tears to your eyes

All the words I sing about
All the letters I write about
Only thing I wanna hear about
Is when I get closer to you
I know there's someone else
He is only thinking of himself
It doesn't make any sense for you to be lonely

Let me be the one
You share your hopes and dreams with
You'll never be alone again cause
I will hold you endlessly
Please don't be afraid to let
Your broken heart guide you
Into these open arms
I long to surround you

tis song is real smooth..enjoy!
mactick out.

2005-10-26T16:46:00.000+08:00

Boyz II Men - Water Runs Dry

We don't even talk anymore
And we don't even know what we argue about
Don't even say I love you no more
'Cause sayin' how I feel is no longer allowed
Some people will work things out
And some just don't know how to change

CHORUS:
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don't do it baby

Now they can see the tears in our eyes
But we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts
Well maybe that's a pain we can't hide
'Cause everybody knows that we're both torn apart
Why do we hurt each other
Why do we push love away

nice song eh...been listenin to Boyz II Men greatest hits collection cd on ma discman the past couple of days..
if u guys wan ter listen it, can lend it ter yer some day soon..juz buzz me.

im fallin deeper as days past me by...
why does ma heart goes racing fer yer?